You.....

How is it that you can get away with that. For you everything seems forgiven. You know where your powers lie. And make no bones of using it. You are blinded by your own aura. You cannot see the world lesser mortals live in. You sit on a high throne judging the others. Parting to right and left the have’s and the have not’s. I keep wondering. when it is my turn where will I stand?

Sadly I see myself drawn to you. I know you mean only trouble but I keep aligning myself towards you. Every time you laugh I feel myself smiling, even though I do not know what it is you are laughing at. I find myself straining to hear the words you often speak. I watch every movement you make and interpret it my own way. Your many facets has me all enchanted. Yet I know there is something within that piercing eyes of yours, a person yet unseen. You try to hide it from all the others waiting for the right one to reveal yourself to. 

I keep looking for that special some thing. Some thing that will mean that what I feel is true. If only I could follow you for the rest of eternity.  May be then I will begin to know who you are. May be by then I will have gotten over your magical ways. May be then I would not be so disillusioned by your perfect ways.

Introspection

You know how sometimes a simple, well meant compliment can hit a raw nerve.It makes you look at yourself and re-evaluate. You begin to wonder why it is that you cannot see for yourself what others can see for you. You begin at first to question the intention of the complimenter. You think that all that was said was to make you feel better. But then again you think why did the person have to? You didn't ask for their opinion. The person was never obligated to say anything. And yet he complimented you. May be then there is some truth to what he says.And that is actually when the hurt sets in. And you wonder why it is that you can't see these things for yourself. Why it is that in spite of all the words of praise you lack belief in yourself. You fail time and again to see the person you truly are. You begin to think how you landed here in the first place. You begin to introspect.

You realise that you have become cynical. Unappreciative of yourself. Sometimes too hard on yourself. That you have in many ways failed yourself by never giving importance to yourself. You took whatever was given to you, without asking for more. You thought that with time things will come to you. That you yourself will change. How wrong!!

You realise that is people fail to see who you really are it is only because you have hidden it from them. They take efforts to get to know you but you turn them down. They are not mind readers. They are not going to go out of their way either. If you wish them to see what you truly are then you have to show them the way.