Today I saw the movie “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind”…I know…a bit too late… but then what the hell….Better later than Never…!
The movie forced me to think…about spotless minds..about what it would be to have your memories erased. What it would feel like? What would be the effects? Would I choose it? More importantly which would be the memories that I would choose to erase? How will I decide?
Would you choose those memories that haunt you? The ones where you remember being on the floor crying your heart out. The ones where you wished the earth would just open up and swallow you whole. They are the memories that keep opening your almost healed wounds. Would you choose them? Wouldn’t it be wonderful to know that you wouldn’t be as damaged now..that you wont cringe when you think of those days again. You wouldn’t have to start from scratch again….
Or would you choose your happiest moments? The one’s that make you soar in the air…The one’s that you wish would never fade away. Would you choose these? After all if you do not have the good memories the bad ones wont seem bad at all in comparison. You could never get hurt falling on the ground as you never reached the sky anyway…You wouldn’t then feel miserable when the world starts falling apart again.
Or maybe you should choose the ordinary days. The days that never meant anything to anyone. The days that you don’t remember any which ways. Those days when when everything seems mediocre, run of the mill…Maybe these days should be erased from your memory to make space for other more impactful memories. After all, what is the point of average days, memories and feelings…?
Both myself and hubby could not stand that movie...so we left it half way through.
ReplyDeleteI don't think it is about the pain that has been caused...but mostly we want to forget the foolish choices we made when we did not allow logic to prevail....Guess i don't want to erase the difficult days, but i do wish that there were few things that i did differently...( yes those things that I am ashamed of doing)
Hmmm...so rather than undoing things,which you can't, wouldn't you prefer not having the memory of the foolish things you did. The end result would be the same any which ways.
DeleteBut those foolish things tell me more about who I am really...i need to remember them not to make those mistakes...and more than that to understand another one...not to judge harshly
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